Today I was going through my drawers/closet pulling out maternity clothes to put away (I can finally fit back in my normal clothes!!) and it brought so many emotions back to me. As I went through my clothes, I remembered every thing that got me to where I am now. I thought about when I learned I was pregnant for the 3rd time. Although I was excited, the fear drowned out any joy. I was so scared that just believing it was hard enough, nonetheless getting myself to buy maternity clothes. I have such a small frame, so by 8 weeks hiding it was becoming so difficult! At 10 weeks, I finally had to force myself to go get a maternity shirt, to at the very least, hide the rubber band that was holding my jeans shut. As I folded that shirt to store in the attic, I thought back to how nervous I was. Believing that if I just walked into Motherhood Maternity I would be jinxing my pregnancy. All the sweaters reminded me of how I was pregnant in the winter time and praying constantly that the baby I was carrying would finally be the one we got to hold in our arms. As winter clothes became spring clothes and sizes got bigger, I remembered thinking about how happy I was to display my now obvious belly. Each piece of clothing seemed to hold some memory for me as I took the journey that would eventually give me my miracle. I remember the fear, the anticipation, the eventual joy and every other emotion (there were MANY) that I felt while carrying my baby girl. It's amazing how fast all those memories can flood back into your head and by something so simple as the decision to store your maternity clothes. I sit here now with my little Addy sleeping in her pack and play and can hardly believe she is finally here. Never would I have imagined that when I climbed in to bed and whispered to my hubby that we were pregnant again with such trepidation, that it would end up bringing me the most happiness I've ever had. All that pain and sorrow was not easy, but it was God's plan and for that reason alone it was the right plan.
I pray every day for you ladies who are still on this journey and I do not mean to offend anyone who is still struggling. Rather I intend to give you hope. Hope that although this struggle is the hardest thing many of us will ever go through, that one day you will each have the little miracles you all deserve.
I pray every day for you ladies who are still on this journey and I do not mean to offend anyone who is still struggling. Rather I intend to give you hope. Hope that although this struggle is the hardest thing many of us will ever go through, that one day you will each have the little miracles you all deserve.
10 comments:
Wendy said...
beautiful post, Dawn. I am so very happy that you have come full circle and now have your little miracle and blessing in your arms. We have all been through this journey together and I remain faithful that all was a part of God's plan for He's the only one that knows the reasons for our painful and sad times. But He is also the reason for babies that we hold now. I also pray for all the ladies that still are on the journey - it never seems like it will be 'you' one day - but when it happens, the sense of gratefulness is something we will never take for granted.
Alison said...
I sure hope to be writing a post like this a month after my little one is born in February! Thank you for providing so much hope :)
Kailyn's Mommy said...
Well said. =0)
ashley said...
Beautiful post! And way to go on fitting back into your regular clothes already! I'm still trying to lose almost 10 pounds of baby weight a year later. :(
Me said...
What a sweet post! I am so happy for you! Congrats on getting back into your pre pregnancy clothes!
I purged my house of all things maternity, and felt the same way you do. Only for me it was bittersweet knowing I will never wear those clothes again. (hysterectomy at the end of the month...) At least the maternity clothes went to a good home--my SIL!
Laura said...
This was a beautiful post. I know it will be on my mind when I pack away my clothes. I remember being so hesitant to take the plunge and buy the clothes as well. I'm so glad that your pregnancy resulted in such a beautiful baby girl...and I look forward to the remaining few weeks of mine as well. God bless!
cheryllookingforward said...
Hooray for regular clothes again! Congratulations!
This HAS been a long journey and I'm so happy you have your little girl now! xoxo
CeCe said...
you have come a long way indeed! so happy.
p.s. how great that you already fit back into your regular clothes! wish i could say the same!
LuckyOnce said...
I relate to your post so much. It was a long time before I was able to buy (or wear) maternity clothes because I was too nervous. I was fortunate because I showed very late, and was able to wear all of my normal clothes well into my second trimester, but it was still a big step to take them out of the basement, and take the tags off of the ones I had bought when the time came!
StephaE said...
Andddd I just cried....thanks...lol...you are amazing!! (I left you something over at my blog too)