So as many of you may remember back in August my diet drastically changed when Addy starting having more blood than poops in her diaper. It has been 5 months since I have had any dairy or soy products & we are only just starting to try reintroducing. Needless to say I am crazy nervous about this, but the allergist seemed confident. He said that I should just introduce the foods straight to Addy as she is currently eating solids. He doesn't believe it is a true allergy (she was tested), but that she has a pretty bad intolerance. I thought I would be excited about reintroducing foods just so I can have my favorites like pizza & cream cheese but I find I'm more excited for another reason. I am so absolutely sick & tired of people mentioning my weight with utter disgust on their faces but not feeling bad because instead of being overweight I'm underweight!!
I am only barely 5'2" & prior to getting pregnant with Adelyn, I weighed about 120. Not overweight by any means, but I certainly had a bit of a pouch. At my highest during the pregnancy I reached 152. The baby weight went a lot quicker than I thought thanks to breastfeeding & being so insanely active while pregnant. Once I cut pretty much all processed foods & could not eat out any longer, I continued losing a substantial amount of weight. I am most happy at around 115 & am currently at 105. The lowest I reached was 102 at which point I started working really hard to put weight back on & keep it on. It seems that with this diet I won't get much higher than 105. I know many of you are probably thinking whoa is me, but just like someone who has too much weight on is not comfortable with their body image, neither am I with being too thin. I lose & gain mostly in my face & I feel like I look gaunt & unhealthy & this makes me unhappy. My biggest issue though is the comments people make. I'm not doing this by choice. I am on this diet so that I can continue to breastfeed my daughter. It is neither easy or fun! Telling me I need to eat does not help! Trust me if I was allowed I would eat a whole darn pizza & finish it off with about six snickers bars! Pointing out someones weight is never polite & doing it while looking at me like I'm doing it on purpose makes it worse! Although I have heard comments throughout, it seems like lately people are pointing it out (as if I didn't know!) more & more. And I'm not just talking acquaintances. My family, my church family, my close friends...everyone! Ugh I'm so over it! Ok sorry for the vent. I"ll leave on a happier note w/a pic of Addy & I enjoying the snow!
I am only barely 5'2" & prior to getting pregnant with Adelyn, I weighed about 120. Not overweight by any means, but I certainly had a bit of a pouch. At my highest during the pregnancy I reached 152. The baby weight went a lot quicker than I thought thanks to breastfeeding & being so insanely active while pregnant. Once I cut pretty much all processed foods & could not eat out any longer, I continued losing a substantial amount of weight. I am most happy at around 115 & am currently at 105. The lowest I reached was 102 at which point I started working really hard to put weight back on & keep it on. It seems that with this diet I won't get much higher than 105. I know many of you are probably thinking whoa is me, but just like someone who has too much weight on is not comfortable with their body image, neither am I with being too thin. I lose & gain mostly in my face & I feel like I look gaunt & unhealthy & this makes me unhappy. My biggest issue though is the comments people make. I'm not doing this by choice. I am on this diet so that I can continue to breastfeed my daughter. It is neither easy or fun! Telling me I need to eat does not help! Trust me if I was allowed I would eat a whole darn pizza & finish it off with about six snickers bars! Pointing out someones weight is never polite & doing it while looking at me like I'm doing it on purpose makes it worse! Although I have heard comments throughout, it seems like lately people are pointing it out (as if I didn't know!) more & more. And I'm not just talking acquaintances. My family, my church family, my close friends...everyone! Ugh I'm so over it! Ok sorry for the vent. I"ll leave on a happier note w/a pic of Addy & I enjoying the snow!
9 comments:
StephaE said...
Oh my goodness!!! She is adorable! JUST LOOK AT THOSE CHEEKS!!!!!
I am sorry people are giving you such a hard time about your weightloss. I know that it must be hard...Alyssa was also dealing with this...and so is my friend Jill.
I am glad that your diet is going back to somewhat normal...but I am proud of you for changing it so much to breastfeed! :)
Melis.sa said...
Vent away hun! I think you're amazing for sticking to the plan so that you can breastfeed your little girl!
Kailyn's Mommy said...
Kailyn's Mommy said...
I know it's hard but just try to ignore them. You are doing such a great thing for your daughter and that is all that matters. And if they cared enough to ask you before judging they would realize you aren't just starving yourself and there is a VERY good reason behind your weight loss. I definitely know how you feel too. I am not on any special diet at all. I eat like a pig, not even exaggerating! And yet I weigh 106. I haven't weighed this since high school. Yet I hate the way I look. I used to work out all the time and was always very toned. That is all gone. My skin looks like it just hangs to me! I just haven't had time to work out. Plus I am worried if I do I may lose more weight. I believe the weight loss is TOTALLY from BFing. There is no other explanation for it. If I would have ate like I do now 2 years ago I would be at least 118. (my heaviest) One day soon I will be back in the gym and not BFing anymore and then people can shut there mouths about me withering away! lol
Andrea said...
Dawn,
I've been thin all my life and endured endless comments. I brush them off, as I know what my food intake is. Not to mention that I eat healthy and enjoy working out.
In your case, you are petite and I'm sure you look just fine. But more than anything you've adjusted to nourishing your child and that is what's most important. With eating disorders at an all time high being thin seems to be on everyones radar. They speculate and talk and conjur up all kinds of things. Do your best to ignore the comments and focus on Addy and yourself. The weight will come back when your body says its time :)
Big HUGS
ashley said...
You are doing what you need to do for your daughter, putting her needs before your own. The weight will come back on once you can eat different foods. You're happy and healthy and so is your little girl so that's all that people should be concerned with. Thinking of you!
Nat said...
I'm sorry. I'm not comfortable with my body image, either. I am 5'2" and 127 pounds. I'm not overweight, and I'm not underweight. However, I've got a gut that comes with NINE pregnancies, and I've got D-cup nursing hooters. I just look a lot heavier than I am. Too bad insurance doesn't cover lypo! ;)
Laura said...
I think that you are absolutely beautiful and absolutely wonderful for being so careful with what you ate for Addy's sake. And I think that she would (will!) say the same thing. :)
LuckyOnce said...
It must be so frustrating for people to not really understand, and feel free to put their two cents in anyway!
Hope everything goes great with the reintroduction of foods!! (Yay for pizza and cream cheese!) :)