Gods Plan Not Mine

Today I had one of the most frightening days of my life.  I was so busy dealing with everything that it wasn't until after the fact that everything hit me & I just sat down & cried.  Actually, I still keep crying.  I know that everyone doesn't understand or  they may think I'm exaggerating but I know that my faithful bloggie friends will understand.

After being a little fussy this morning, Adelyn went down for her afternoon nap & slept 2 whole hours.  If you knew my baby girl, you would know this doesn't happen often.  She woke up & coughed a bit but looked like she was going to roll back over & go to sleep.  This would be really unusual, so I watched her on the video monitor to see.  She coughed again than rolled from her side/belly to her back.  I figured she wasn't going back to bed & was about to go get her when she vomited profusely.  I ran in there & she was covered & all her lunch was all over.  I got her up & cleaned her off.  She was a little lethargic but seemed ok otherwise.  I sat in the glider to feed her & she started to get drowsy & fall asleep on the first boob.  That's when I knew she wasn't feeling well & just let her fall asleep.  Unfortunately that didn't happen as she vomited again all over both of us & the glider.  She kept going for a while & when she was finally done I put her up on the changing table & took all her (& my) soaked clothes off.  Even on the table she was still trying to play even though she was obviously exhausted.  She kept choking & throwing up while I frantically called my mom & hubby to get there.  At this point she was pretty out of it.  I called the Dr who put me on hold.  Well while on hold Adelyn threw up again & than lost all color in her face & went limp my arms.  She totally passed out!  When the Dr came back on I was frantic!  I was so sure I was going to lose my little miracle.  I know this may be seem melodramatic but I have been through so much to get her here & there she was in my arms & lifeless.  She came to after only about 30 seconds but was pretty catatonic & unresponsive. 

The Dr stayed on the phone with me & reassured me that it was due to the energy she exhausted by throwing up for 45 min & dehydration.  Addy fell asleep in my arms & she told me to keep an eye on her & that a bad stomach bug was going around.  My mom brought pedialite (the dr recommended) & once Adelyn woke she was a hundred times better.  Still pretty pale & tired but more like herself.  She went to bed (after a quick bath) pretty early & has been sleeping since.  I am hoping that whatever it was has passed.  I will probably be in that room a hundred times tonight to make sure she is ok. 

I have NEVER been so scared in my life.  Lately things with her have been so difficult with her waking early & not napping & I've been at my wits end.  It is amazing how little that matters now!   My precious baby girl mean so very much to me & as long as she is happy & healthy who cares if she isn't napping well or waking mommy up @ 5am!!  None of that is important!  She is my everything & I am so thankful that she is ok.  I will be fine if I never have to go through anything like that again.  It has taught me a valuable lesson though.  My baby girl is so strong & her mommy a little bit stronger after today.  Please pray that she continues to get better & is able to get some rest.

Hope all of you ladies are doing well.  I don't get to write as much as I would like but I think of you all often.  God bless.