Gods Plan Not Mine

Ok so if you've been there you know that last week before baby arrives is often filled w/last minute preparation, as many naps as possible & that crazy burst of energy some of us get thanks to nesting.  At least this is how it went with Addy.  I was so looking forward to this week.  Tuning in to my body & awaiting the arrival of our precious boy.  Sadly, this is NOT how it went.  On Thurs night I started getting a somewhat annoying toothache in an old root canal.  This tooth has caused me issues in the past & after seeing the Dr about it in Aug we learned that the crown was just poorly made but insurance wouldn't cover a new one til the summer.  So we put it back on in hopes that it would hold out.  Once I woke up Fri & the pain had gotten pretty bad I made an appt & went in.  The Dr did an xray (which I tried to avoid) & informed me the root canal had "failed" & needed to be repaired.  Unfortunately it was infected so I couldn't get it fixed until I was on antibiotics for at least 3 days.  He gave me a script for those & 800mg ibuprofen & an appt for Tues morn @ 8am.  By noon that afternoon the pain was so bad but I had heard that ibuprofen was a big No No last tri, so I called my midwife.  She said if I could handle the pain she would rather I stick w/Tylenol based products but that if I needed the ibuprofen for the swelling than it was ok to take it.  So I got it filled but then the pharmacist scared the crud out of me more telling me all the risks.  After that I asked my midwife for something else & she called in Tylenol #3 but reiterated that she was the midwife & that if she said it was ok to take the ibuprofen that it was.  After dinner that night I was in a pain I didn't even know was possible.  Not just did I take the ibuprofen but also the Tylenol but nothing was working.  I read up & learned that sadly most pain killers won't work until the antibiotics start working on the infection.  I suffered throughout the night & called my dentist emergency line Sat begging/crying for him to help me.  He said that until the antibiotics start working he can't do any work.  Apparently the Novocaine would not take while there was an infection present.  The pain got so unbearable I ended up in the ER that afternoon.  I was so desperate I didn't know what to do.  They gave me a dental block which numbed the side of my face & gave me sweet relief.  But like my dentist explained it lasted less than 2 hrs & by the time it wore off the pain was even worse.  During that time I was able to sleep some & drink a yogurt smoothie at least.  They also gave me a script for Vicodin but I just couldn't bring myself to take it.  And besides nothing else was working.  They also reiterated how unsafe ibuprofen was which did not help! At this point I hadn't eaten anything substantial since my dinner Fri night.  I was trying to drink smoothies but everything just hurt so bad.  Baby boy would get so quiet any time I would take anything & I'm sure the lack of food/sleep was not helping.  I "slept" on the couch Sat night & would alternate between the Tylenol & ibuprofen in an attempt to reduce the pain.  I cried for hours basically.  By Sun morn it was as though the antibiotics finally started kicking in and the the meds started to help the pain.  However, I had developed a HUGE abscess & my entire face was swollen.

Don't I look lovely?! 

I certainly wasn't pain free but the meds were working which helped me get through the day.  That night I actually slept waking only to take some meds to get through.  Finally on Mon I called the dentist & went in.  He decided the tooth wasn't even worth saving & he would remove the whole thing.  Thankfully after 3 shots of Novocaine the area was numb enough & the tooth was removed.  Naturally this helped with recovery but was sadly not the end of my pain.  Things have slowly gotten better but some days are still pretty painful.  Of all the meds the only thing that helps is the ibuprofen which I imagine is because it helps w/the swelling.  I am down to taking only a normal advil a few times a day but still have extreme guilt/nerves over it.  Saw my midwife Mon afternoon after the extraction & she reiterated that baby would be fine & also informed me I lost 4 lbs from last week.  Luckily as of Tues morn I've been able to actually eat food & the swelling has gone down a lot.  For some reason today has been super painful & I'm getting very discouraged.  I know my body will not allow me to go in to labor until I'm better & I'm grateful for that.  But here I am 39+5 weeks & suffering tooth pain.  I should be enjoying my time w/Addy before it's no longer just the 2 of us.  I know that things can only get better as I continue to heal & I've been trying to hold on to that.  Please pray that this tooth heals completely before my due date in 2 days.  My mom has been in town since Sun & is here til the 13th.  That has been such a HUGE blessing but I would be so sad if she didn't get to see our little man or spend much time with him before needing to return home. 

Baby boy is starting to be more active again & my BH contractions are back full force so I'm taking this as a good sign.  I've been so very worried about him!  So that's how I've spent my 39th week of pregnancy.  Not fun at all!