Gods Plan Not Mine

So I have a story only you women can appreciate. I work as a Coastal Biologist in Long Island, NY. During the busy season (March-Sept), I hire on staff to help out with our Threatened & Endangered Species Program. The boy I hired (C), started about a month earlier than the 2 other girls. I was unknowingly pregnant when he started and after needing to pee constantly (there are no bathrooms open at the beaches in March/April) things got a little strange pretty fast as we just met. After I finally learned that I was pregnant I ended up telling him as the peeing issue became an even bigger deal because I got a UTI. So sadly he also learned of the miscarriage.

Yesterday his girlfriend came to pick him up as they only have one car and although I had met her and seen her at least 3 other times since the miscarriage she said "How are you feeling?". I've had some pretty bad migraines lately and had assumed C had mentioned that to her. So I said, "I'm feeling much better, head hasn't really even hurt today." AND SHE SAYS, "NO I MEAN THIS" AND TOUCHED MY BELLY!!!!!!! I guess C told her when I was preggo but not that I had lost it!!!!!! In all honesty I didn't get sad or mad like I would have expected. Instead I was just so worried about how bad she felt when I told her we lost it. I started babbling about anything just to make her feel better. It was seriously the MOST awkward experience I have ever had. I mean to still think I'm preggo is one thing, but to touch my belly?! And as she is talking her way out of it with a bright red face, I am thinking "DO I LOOK 5 MONTHS PREGNANT????", so I start sucking in my stomach hahahaha. But seriously she was so very sorry and after all I have been through it was more funny (not for her I'm sure) than anything else. I spoke with C today and he said he got screamed at on the car ride home. I figured that was gonna happen...lol. So I like to take the fact that I found it humorous as a sign of my getting stronger and moving forward.

On the TTC front, Hubby and I met with the RE yesterday and have decided that we are going with the clomid. We will go in on CD 3 (should be around 8/5) for a baseline U/S and then start taking it through CD 5-10, at which point I'll be camping upstate, so lets hope it doesn't make me to crazy or cranky. Thank you to the ladies who gave me their ideas and opinions on the matter, it really did assist us in our decision.