So today I am 7dpiui and am not feeling very positive at all. I feel like I'm stuck at this crossroad between self preservation and hope. I don't want to allow myself to be too optimistic because I am so scared of being let down. Yet on the other hand, I know that I can't give up hope and that being positive is important. During this first week I was very hopeful, but it seems as I get closer to finding out, the less I believe this is ever going to happen for me. I know I'm just giving myself a pity party but for some reason I am stuck in a rut. Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. One of those days where it all seems to hit you at once. I am trying my best to lean on the Lord because I know He has my best interest in mind, no matter what his plans are, but this isn't always easy. Please pray that I am able to get through this next week without driving myself mad and for continued strength during this journey.
2 years ago
9 comments:
Anonymous said...
I am sorry it's hard right now. When I feel so down and can't get my spirits up, I put on my ipod and find a really good worship song to listen to over and over and over and over again. The one I love right now is "I'd Need A Savior" from Among the Thirsty.
Praying for you.
Wendy said...
Praying for you, that you will have the strength and courage to get through this journey. ((hugs))
Laura said...
I've been there too, Dawn. I definitely felt quite defeated when my cycle started last week. Please know that you're not alone, and I'm thinking of you and praying for you!
wifey said...
I hope this cycle works out for you. I have been stuck at that same crossroads between hope and self preservation forever - hopefully your stay will be short.
And I'm a firm believer that the occasional pity pary is necessary to one's mental health - they help me to appreciate the good in my life.
cheryllookingforward said...
I'm sending you some hope, Dawn.
LuckyOnce said...
The 2 week wait is so hard. I really hope this cycle works for you. I've got my fingers crossed.
Fumbling towards Motherhood said...
This whole two week wait is so difficult for women in our situation. It's a real roller coaster ride, some days you're up and hopeful, other days your down and sad. Just know that you're not alone and that we're here to listen. It's good to post like you did today, you need to get your worries off your chest through this process. ((BIG HUG)) YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
Kailyn's Mommy said...
There is nothing easy about the two week wait. After doing it over and over again the last 6 months before we finally got PG again I can't say it ever get's any easier. It will happen for you. I hope it happens sooner than later. Looking back now 6 months doesn't seem like that long but to me it seemed like well over a year!
Praying for good new for you soon!
just me, dawn said...
sending you a big hug. It is hard not to ride the TWW wave....roughest time in my opinion. hang in there!