My husband and I recently made the very difficult decsion to interview another group of midwives in the area. After my last post I felt pretty confident that things were going to get better, but sadly that wasn't to be the case. As I mentioned, the midwife I saw recommended that I see a cardiologist for the heart palpitations I've been having. She said that if the office said they couldn't see me right away to call them and they would make the appt for me to get me in ASAP. Well the cardiologist's office said they didn't have an opening until July, so I did as I was told and called the midwives so that they could help me get in sooner. I made that call 8:30am on Fri and again this morning and still no call back. In that time frame I have had 2 instances where my heart rate remained over 130 beats per minute (maxing at 152) for about a half hour. Although I think these midwives are probably an excellent group of women, I just don't know if they are for me.
So here I am 32.3 weeks pregnant and preparing to meet a new smaller group of midwives. Our appt is scheduled for this Wed at 5pm. Instead of 10 different midwives there are only 3 and the hospital allows water birth. I am very excited about this part. I am struggling with making this move so late in the game and the differences in the 2 hospitals we'd be birthing at. Although the water birth is a bonus, our original location was only 20 min from our house (instead of the 45 min the new place is) and is much better known and advanced. Both hospitals have a NICU, but the place we were going to go to has one of the best in the state. Hopefully this will not matter at all. Please keep my husband and I in your prayers this week as I am very anxious over this whole thing. I really don't want to deal with this, but in the end I need to know I have a relationship with and can trust the person delivering our little miracle. I need to feel like I at least looked into other options.
So here I am 32.3 weeks pregnant and preparing to meet a new smaller group of midwives. Our appt is scheduled for this Wed at 5pm. Instead of 10 different midwives there are only 3 and the hospital allows water birth. I am very excited about this part. I am struggling with making this move so late in the game and the differences in the 2 hospitals we'd be birthing at. Although the water birth is a bonus, our original location was only 20 min from our house (instead of the 45 min the new place is) and is much better known and advanced. Both hospitals have a NICU, but the place we were going to go to has one of the best in the state. Hopefully this will not matter at all. Please keep my husband and I in your prayers this week as I am very anxious over this whole thing. I really don't want to deal with this, but in the end I need to know I have a relationship with and can trust the person delivering our little miracle. I need to feel like I at least looked into other options.
11 comments:
LuckyOnce said...
For what it's worth, I think you're definitely making the right decision. Especially at this point in your pregnancy, it is SO important to feel completely confident in your care provider. You should definitely pursue the cardiologist about the heart palpitations. That's nothing to mess around with. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that everything goes smoothly for you as you transition to the new hospital and midwives.
Amy said...
Praying for you and your hubby that it all works out. You definitely have to trust your midwife that is going to bring this miracle into the world. You need to follow your heart and if you are not feeling comfortable with this midwife, definitely make the change even though it might be difficult.
Anonymous said...
Sounds like you're making a good decision. I had a few gut feelings in my 3rd trimester that maybe I should change caregivers, but I didn't, and it turned out I should have listened to my gut, because my birth experience was horrible. Listen to your heart. A pregnant mother's intuition is invaluable. Good luck.
Me said...
It is a big decision, but when you think about it, it is a huge life-changing event. You have to have people there that you trust. Good luck!
Laura said...
How frustrating. I pray for peace through the process!
TIG said...
good luck on the new search. i think you are doing the right thing to follow your heart. you need to feel confident and comfortable during the birth process. you'll be in my prayers!
CeCe said...
Good luck. I hope you will feel better after interviewing.
projectbaby said...
I know this couldn't have been an easy decision for you guys but whatever's best for the baby, right? It'll all be worth it in the end. You'll have that 'lil one in your arms in no time and all of this will seem minute when that time comes! Hang in there!
Wendy said...
be confident that you made the right decision for you and your baby. It is so great that there is the option to change care so I am glad that you will be with a team that you feel confident in during your biggest moment in life :)
ashley said...
I hope you find someone, you know what's best for you and your baby. About the palpitations, I had them while pregnant and still have some now. Mine turned out to be nothing after seeing a cardiologist as well, but good to get it checked out just to be sure. Hope you're doing well, all that aside. It will be no time before you're bringing that sweet little baby home!!!
Shandrea said...
Thinking of you and sending you hugs.