Gods Plan Not Mine

Ok so instead of posting only about TTC & the sad news that once again I got a BFN, I have decided to write about my little love & something that gives me great joy.  Our Mommy group.

When I moved upstate I was terribly lonely & knew if I didn't find a way to get out of the house soon, I would get stuck in a rut.  Back on LI, I knew a mom who joined a mommy group using meetup.com.  I stored this info but didn't really need it as I was blessed w/many friends who had babies around the same time as me.  But when I got up here I rememberd it & decided to take a look.  I found a group of SAHM in my county & signed up.  Our first date was the weekly reading program at the library.  Believe it or not 2 other moms had also just signed up & it was there first "play date" as well.  We ended up introducing ourselves & over a few weeks met some of the other members.  I have to say I never imagined that I would make so many wonderful, kind & loving friends so very fast.  One of the 2 girls I met that first day has become one of my closest friends & her gorgeous baby girl is only a month younger than Addy.  We do a lot together & I am so very grateful for her friendship. 

As w/any group there are those you are closer to or just hit it off more with, but I have to be honest there are not many who aren't just great.  Three of the women are Christians which is always a blessing.  One of them invited us to her church (hubby is the assistant Pastor) & after trying 8 others we think this is the one.  Finding a new church after leaving one you LOVED is not easy & this group has even helped me do that!  We can do anywhere from 1-4 playdates a week.  Not all of them are via the website as some of us prefer the smaller groups or are just closer to others & invite a select few to do some things.  But we have done so much & learned a ton about our new area.  We have been to a bounce place, library events, holiday parties, the mall play area, the Museum of Play & so much more! 

I have confided in those women I am close to about our losses & our struggles & am so thankful to have their support as we TTC baby #2.  Because this has been a tough week, these women have made sure to keep me busy & we have done something every day this week!  Did I mention how much I love these ladies?!  Addy has such a great time & talks about her friends ALL DAY LONG!  She is learning so much from being around them & mommy is getting to have adult conversation!  So instead of wallowing in sadness & wondering what exactly God is doing, I am focusing on the positive. On the many blessings He has given me & continues to give.  AF is due Fri/Sat & we will do another clomid/IUI cycle & hope for the best.  And instead of stressing, I will be w/hubby in Puerto Rico a week from today celebrating the marriage of our best friends to one another!  Not sure how I'll manage 5 long days w/out my little love but I'm hoping to be busy.  I don't know His timing but I know it's better than mine (even if I tend to wish it weren't).  So when the time is right we will get/stay pregnant again.  Addy was worth the wait & I know our next baby will be too.

P.S.  I do have to say that trying to remain positive is much easier when you don't hear about losers like Snooki getting pregnant.  Urgh!