Thank you for your positive uplifting comments yesterday. We went to our appt. and didn't get a sono but this was not big surprise because I didn't think we would. However the rest of the appointment went great. I got to see the head midwife and what a wonderful woman! I was such a wreck when I went in and I walked out calm and hopeful. We did get to hear the heartbeat and that was great. I asked her about the weird new cramps (which I still have) and she said they are normal and not to worry. Naturally that is easier said than done, but I am doing my best and leaning on the Lord when I feel I'm trying to be in control too much. She did say she would do a sono in 7 weeks and I almost s#%t myself! My wonderful loving hubby saw my face turn white and asked if there was anyway we could do one sooner and explained that this is difficult for me. The midwife explained that insurance was the issue and walked out to see if we could do one in 2 weeks. She said they would put an authorization in and would let me know in a week if the insurance company approved it. So I scheduled the sono for Jan 8th and I am just praying praying praying that the stupid insurance company approves it! I than have our anatomy scan on Feb 3rd!
I know that at any point things can take a drastic turn but I am going to do my best to remain positive and believe I will get to hold this little one in July. I want to thank all of you ladies who have been such an encouragement to me. After my 1st loss I didn't know what to do with myself. I was stuck in such a slump and no one understood. Once we lost the 2nd baby I was at a complete loss. I was sick of everyones typical stupid remarks and just needed anyone who understood. That is when I found this loving wonderfully caring community and I am so thankful. Without you ladies I'm not sure what I would do. So many of you still struggle and are stronger than I could ever be and I can't even begin to express how much I admire you. I am praying that 2010 brings everyone the miracle they deserve. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year and thanks again.
I know that at any point things can take a drastic turn but I am going to do my best to remain positive and believe I will get to hold this little one in July. I want to thank all of you ladies who have been such an encouragement to me. After my 1st loss I didn't know what to do with myself. I was stuck in such a slump and no one understood. Once we lost the 2nd baby I was at a complete loss. I was sick of everyones typical stupid remarks and just needed anyone who understood. That is when I found this loving wonderfully caring community and I am so thankful. Without you ladies I'm not sure what I would do. So many of you still struggle and are stronger than I could ever be and I can't even begin to express how much I admire you. I am praying that 2010 brings everyone the miracle they deserve. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year and thanks again.
7 comments:
Wendy said...
so glad that everything went great at your appt! I kept checking to see if you had updated and prayed for you last night! What a relief! Hopefully your digestive issues go away so that you can fully enjoy Christmas and the holidays with your family. Sending a big virtual hug - Merry Christmas!!
Andrea said...
Yea! Glad your app't brought you some peace and answered your questions. We need lotts of compassion after what we've gone through and I'm happy you are getting it :)
Thank you for writing about life after loss and sharing that "no one understood" and that you felt "lost". It always helps to know you're feelings are real and you are not the only one who has felt or feels this way. I agree, one of my greatest blessings has been in finding this wonderful community of women who are so real and open.
May God continue to wrap his arms around your little nugget and soothe your mind :) I'm rallying you to the finish line, every step of the way!!!
Hugs and Merry Christmas to you,
Andrea
xoxo
Me said...
Oh! I am so glad everything is okay! I had the same stomach issues yesterday. Not fun. Merry Christmas!
projectbaby said...
So happy to hear you're feeling better. Aren't we just so simple? All we need is someone (dr/midwife) who know what they're talking about to tell us what we're feeling is normal. :) Most important thing is HB is still there and strong! I couldn't agree more...no matter how close your BFF/sisters are to you...no one understands what we have and still go through as much as this community of amazing women. Hope you and your family and the 'lil one in there have a very Merry Christmas! Keep us updated!
just me, dawn said...
I am so happy that you got to hear the HB.....and hoping that santa brings you an insurance approval for the additional US! merry christmas!
Rach said...
Merry Christmas!
CeCe said...
So glad things are going well for you! I hope you are able to get your next ultrasound sooner rather than later for the added peace of mind.
Emi from "The Lilly Pad" directed me to your blog.. I am also due in July (this pregnancy following a second trimester loss).
Wishing you all the best in 2010!