Our world comes crashing down.
Dr. called. HCG went down from 6974 to 6923 in 7 days. He himself said it doesn't make sense but to be realistic, expect to miscarry. He said I could come in next week & there could be no heartbeat or that we could lose it even later. We are moving Monday & just spent 2 hrs trying to find someone who will take over for us up there. RE's won't see us as we are already pregnant & we're too complex for regular OB/GYN. Finally ended up talking with someone at a perintologist office & I think she was an angel sent from God. So very kind. So we go there Wed & see if our baby is still with us. Each day will feel like a year. I'm not optimistic but I'm an RPL mommy & I'm hopeful. Thank you so all so much for sharing in our short lived excitement from this morning. Even if/when we lose this LO, we will always have had that special moment with him/her.
I certainly don't understand Him, but I have to keep reminding myself that God is in control.
Dr. called. HCG went down from 6974 to 6923 in 7 days. He himself said it doesn't make sense but to be realistic, expect to miscarry. He said I could come in next week & there could be no heartbeat or that we could lose it even later. We are moving Monday & just spent 2 hrs trying to find someone who will take over for us up there. RE's won't see us as we are already pregnant & we're too complex for regular OB/GYN. Finally ended up talking with someone at a perintologist office & I think she was an angel sent from God. So very kind. So we go there Wed & see if our baby is still with us. Each day will feel like a year. I'm not optimistic but I'm an RPL mommy & I'm hopeful. Thank you so all so much for sharing in our short lived excitement from this morning. Even if/when we lose this LO, we will always have had that special moment with him/her.
I certainly don't understand Him, but I have to keep reminding myself that God is in control.
15 comments:
Laura said...
That doesn't make any kind of sense! I realize that life is so extremely fragile, but a heartbeat this morning seems so promising! I'm so sorry that you're on this roller coaster! Like you said, God is in control. I don't understand Him either, but I do believe that He loves you and this little one. Prayers!
Tracy said...
That is so weird! Seriously! I think my RE said that once you see and hear a heart beat, the chances of having a miscarriage drop significantly. It seems so backward from your hcg dropping. :(
I'm still holding out hope for you and your little one! <3
Melis.sa said...
I'm still praying for you and the baby!!!
cheryllookingforward said...
I'm still hopeful for you. I'll be waiting and waiting for Wednesday and hoping and hoping that you will get good news. Come on little one!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wendy said...
"God is in Control" - keep positive and know that we will all be there in spirit with you when you go on Wednesday. I can't even imagine how it would feel from going to see heartbeat to slightly lower hcg. I am praying for your little one and for you. Hang in there!
Anonymous said...
Hi there. I certainly don't want to get your hopes up (as a fellow member of tthe RPL community, I understand how you are feeling right now). But I was wondering if you may have been pregnant with twins (since you had such a high first beta) and then lost one. I know you have had two ultrasounds already, but I can sort of speak from experience on this one. I was once pregnant with twins (which sadly ended in a miscarriage) and it actually wasn't discovered until I was 6 weeks along,and after multiple ultrasounds (I had a couple instances of bleeding).
Just a thought. I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Oh, I also wanted to let you know about a great site. It's called misdiagnosedmiscarriage.com. It really helped me when I had a lot of questions and was confused about what was going on.
Sorry for the jumbled mess of thoughts, I'm a tired Momma of a 12 month old who's teething!
Erin
TIG said...
You and the lo are in my prayers
Auntie Sissy said...
This rollercoaster you are on is all too familiar, and I can't tell you how empathetic I am for you and your husband. Oh girl, the prayers continue. I pray that no matter what happens with this baby, that you and your husband can still find peace and feel the presence of God surrounding you....that you feel supported in all the ways you need.
CeCe said...
You, your baby and family are in my thoughts and prayers!! Big hugs!
Kailyn's Mommy said...
Thinking of you and your family Dawn and hoping for the best. ((hugs))
Nat said...
{{{hugs}}}
I'm still hopeful, too.
StephaE said...
I am still hopeful! <3 Hugs!!!!!!!!!
cheryllookingforward said...
I just wanted to check in and let you know I'm thinking of you!
Erica said...
Praying for you and checking your blog constantly.
Anonymous said...
Thinking of you!