We went back in today for another sono & our little Poppy (our silly nickname) continues to defy all odds.  S/he was measuring exactly 8 wks, heartbeat had increased to 164 & the subchorionic hematoma got considerably smaller.  Each week I go in I am prepared for the worst, & each week I am amazed, as are the Dr's. We saw the nurse & she asked if I would like blood work done & I decided I did not.  I'm sure I will second guess this decision a thousands times this week, but I know it was the right one to make.  Regardless of the results, I have to wait each week for the sono & if they have not gone up all it does is make me more upset.  They scheduled us to come in next Wed which is my hubby & my 4 yr anniversary.  It is nerve wracking to do it on a special day just in case we do not get good news, but I am working very hard to trust God in all of this.  Hubby says that he believes that is why we are going through this.  To put more trust in the Lord.  I'm sure he is right, I mean look how far we've come & against all scientific evidence as to what our outcome should be.  But the truth is, I'm still so very scared.  Each week (each second), I fall more in love with this baby.  S/he is such a fighter & stubborn just like their mommy & daddy.  I have yet to be able to celebrate & sometimes just don't even feel pregnant.  I have none of the same symptoms as Addy & I guess that adds to the fear as well.  I know each pregnancy is different but w/her I was a mess.  I have definitely put on some weight & look incredibly bloated but other than that not much else.  Because of all the loving comments from you ladies I did stay on the progesterone & I thank you for that.  My emotions are all over the place & sometimes it's hard to look at everything from a different perspective, so I'm glad I had yours.  Please keep praying like mad for us that things continue to go well.  Maybe if s/he is good next week I will be optimistic enough to share a sono pic.  Love you ladies to pieces!


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11 comments:

    Erica said...

    Hooray!! I am really glad you decided not to do bloodwork. Keep that sweet heartbeat in your mind this week and forget those numbers!!!

  1. ... on September 21, 2011 at 2:35 PM  
  2. Nat said...

    Yay! That is wonderful news! I am so glad Poppy is a fighter! Way to go, baby!

  3. ... on September 21, 2011 at 3:41 PM  
  4. Auntie Sissy said...

    Grow Poppy, grow! I am still praying and hoping for all of you!

  5. ... on September 21, 2011 at 4:45 PM  
  6. Melis.sa said...

    your post gave me tingles! Every chance I get I pray for you and the little baby!! Keep us posted!

  7. ... on September 21, 2011 at 6:17 PM  
  8. Wendy said...

    I almost jumped off my couch reading this post! I am so so happy that the sono showed a steady growth - I think you made the right decision re: no getting the bloodwork. You would only spend another week worrying and you need positive thoughts and prayers not the opposite! We will continue to pray for you and this baby - c'mon little poppy! Keep growing!

  9. ... on September 21, 2011 at 7:34 PM  
  10. Ella said...

    I have chills reading this, Dawn! That sweet little thing is really hanging on. What a fighter. I love the nn Poppy, too :) I agree that you made the right choice about not getting the bloodwork done. All you need to know right now is that your baby is measuring appropriately and has a strong hb. THAT is something to celebrate today!

  11. ... on September 21, 2011 at 8:25 PM  
  12. Kailyn's Mommy said...

    I am so happy to hear this good news after reading your other post. I hope for continued good visits and that your little poppy will continue to grow strong! Wishing you the best. I will try to check back next week to see how everything went.

  13. ... on September 21, 2011 at 8:59 PM  
  14. Photogrl said...

    Oh, Dawn...that's awesome news!

    I haven't had the chance to comment lately but I've been reading along and praying hard for you and Poppy!

  15. ... on September 21, 2011 at 9:00 PM  
  16. CeCe said...

    What a nerve-wracking & emotional roller coaster- so glad Poppy is doing well!

  17. ... on September 21, 2011 at 10:43 PM  
  18. Shandrea said...

    I am so glad that things are looking up and I pray that your little one will continue to defy natural odds and that God continues to show his grace and glory. Hugs and Love ;O)

  19. ... on September 22, 2011 at 12:09 AM  
  20. cheryllookingforward said...

    Hooray Poppy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Awesome news. This is wonderful. I'll keep on thinking about you guys and hoping. And smiling!

  21. ... on September 23, 2011 at 12:00 PM