Just a warning...this post may be a little long and consist of a bit of complaining. Figured if there is anywhere I can vent, it is here!!
I went back to the doc on CD 14. Sadly in the mornings I don't get to see Dr. L but his partner Dr. B instead. Although Dr. B is nice enough, he does not take the time Dr. L does. I like explanations! They make me feel better! In addition, I didn't have the same U/S tech but instead some nurse. My typical U/S guy usually moves the screen so I can see and explains everything to me. This woman said hi, did her thing and then said have a nice day and walked out!!! Not a word!! So I went and got my b/w & then sat down with Dr. B. When I came in he said the follicle in my left ovary is now 29.5mm and that one in my right was 21mm. He also told me my lining has increased to 10mm!! So overall I was super happy. I asked him if the 29.5 was too big and he just no with no explanation. I asked if both follicles would release an egg and he said no just one. I figured whatever one is better than none and left feeling just ok by this point.
Fast forward to 2pm. One of the nurses calls and tells me that I am having a surge (I hadn't taken my OPK yet that day) and that the doc wants me to come in for a post coital test. He wants to make sure the sperm is inside the CM like it should be and moving around. She tells me it has to be within 12 hours of my appt (8am the next morning) so I am to have sex any time after 8. First off....sex planned to the hour is NO FUN!!! Second, I didn't think sperm was a problem. Anyway, we do the deed and I head into the office for my wacky after sex test and to my delight Dr. L is there!!! He did a pap kinda thing and then went inside and checked it out under the microscope. It is at this point the cranky and confused begins.
He comes in and says, "everything looks good". So you would think that everything looks good right? WRONG!! He then says that some of the sperm were remaining in place and that could be a sign of sperm antibodies. I don't know a lot about it and refuse to check Dr. Google, but basically either hubby or I could carry an antibody that doesn't allow the little guys to complete their mission. So he tells me that we should have hubby do an SA and then I will get blood work when I drop it off. Then he starts going on about if there is an antibody then we can consider IUI and I'm sitting there drooling!!! I tell him we will wait the 2 wks to see if we are preggo and then take the test and not until we find out if it's even an issue will I even think of how to treat it!! Once passed this, I ask if the 29.5mm follicle is too big. He says no and that often times women hear that follicles are too big because with trigger shots or in IVF they try to keep them around 20-24mm. But when on clomid they are usually just monitoring and find that often times the follicles are a little larger. So then I ask again if it will be the only follicle that will release an egg and he says no that all mature follicles can release an egg. So for about 5 seconds I think yeah I will have two chances. Then he says, "but you only have the one in the left ovary". WHAT??!! I explained that Dr. B had told me I had a 21mm follicle in the right ovary. He shows me the paperwork from that day and it only shows the one in the left ovary column and 3<10mm in the right!!! So WTH??? It's not like I woulda randomly made that up!!! And if the damn obnoxiuos U/S nurse would showed me like the other guy, I would have a better idea!! So once again I left with more dang questions than I had answers!!! I am absolutely done with Dr's. I go back next week for progesterone test then the following week for a pregnancy test.
On top of all of this I am cramping like mad and am not feeling positive at all about having gotten pregnant. I just can not handle all of this planning and exactness (another of my fabulous made up words). When we started TTC there was no pressure. We just did the deed when we thought we should and got pregnant 2 out of the 3 months we tried. But now there seems to be so much anxiety attached to just getting pregnant! That's not the reason I am there darn it! Getting pregnant is supposed to be the easy part and it's once I'm pregnant that I'm supposed to start freaking out!!! Ugh!!!
I went back to the doc on CD 14. Sadly in the mornings I don't get to see Dr. L but his partner Dr. B instead. Although Dr. B is nice enough, he does not take the time Dr. L does. I like explanations! They make me feel better! In addition, I didn't have the same U/S tech but instead some nurse. My typical U/S guy usually moves the screen so I can see and explains everything to me. This woman said hi, did her thing and then said have a nice day and walked out!!! Not a word!! So I went and got my b/w & then sat down with Dr. B. When I came in he said the follicle in my left ovary is now 29.5mm and that one in my right was 21mm. He also told me my lining has increased to 10mm!! So overall I was super happy. I asked him if the 29.5 was too big and he just no with no explanation. I asked if both follicles would release an egg and he said no just one. I figured whatever one is better than none and left feeling just ok by this point.
Fast forward to 2pm. One of the nurses calls and tells me that I am having a surge (I hadn't taken my OPK yet that day) and that the doc wants me to come in for a post coital test. He wants to make sure the sperm is inside the CM like it should be and moving around. She tells me it has to be within 12 hours of my appt (8am the next morning) so I am to have sex any time after 8. First off....sex planned to the hour is NO FUN!!! Second, I didn't think sperm was a problem. Anyway, we do the deed and I head into the office for my wacky after sex test and to my delight Dr. L is there!!! He did a pap kinda thing and then went inside and checked it out under the microscope. It is at this point the cranky and confused begins.
He comes in and says, "everything looks good". So you would think that everything looks good right? WRONG!! He then says that some of the sperm were remaining in place and that could be a sign of sperm antibodies. I don't know a lot about it and refuse to check Dr. Google, but basically either hubby or I could carry an antibody that doesn't allow the little guys to complete their mission. So he tells me that we should have hubby do an SA and then I will get blood work when I drop it off. Then he starts going on about if there is an antibody then we can consider IUI and I'm sitting there drooling!!! I tell him we will wait the 2 wks to see if we are preggo and then take the test and not until we find out if it's even an issue will I even think of how to treat it!! Once passed this, I ask if the 29.5mm follicle is too big. He says no and that often times women hear that follicles are too big because with trigger shots or in IVF they try to keep them around 20-24mm. But when on clomid they are usually just monitoring and find that often times the follicles are a little larger. So then I ask again if it will be the only follicle that will release an egg and he says no that all mature follicles can release an egg. So for about 5 seconds I think yeah I will have two chances. Then he says, "but you only have the one in the left ovary". WHAT??!! I explained that Dr. B had told me I had a 21mm follicle in the right ovary. He shows me the paperwork from that day and it only shows the one in the left ovary column and 3<10mm in the right!!! So WTH??? It's not like I woulda randomly made that up!!! And if the damn obnoxiuos U/S nurse would showed me like the other guy, I would have a better idea!! So once again I left with more dang questions than I had answers!!! I am absolutely done with Dr's. I go back next week for progesterone test then the following week for a pregnancy test.
On top of all of this I am cramping like mad and am not feeling positive at all about having gotten pregnant. I just can not handle all of this planning and exactness (another of my fabulous made up words). When we started TTC there was no pressure. We just did the deed when we thought we should and got pregnant 2 out of the 3 months we tried. But now there seems to be so much anxiety attached to just getting pregnant! That's not the reason I am there darn it! Getting pregnant is supposed to be the easy part and it's once I'm pregnant that I'm supposed to start freaking out!!! Ugh!!!
5 comments:
Kailyn's Mommy said...
WOW that last pharagraph of yours sounds exactly like me this month! I am still not sure what we are going to decide for next month as I have a feeling once again this was not our month. And the meds just made me so crazy!!
We will see. Good luck to you and hopefully you won't even have to think about doing that stuff next month and that this month will be your lucky month.
Laura said...
How frustrating! I'm so sorry that you left without feeling like you had your questions answered. I can be such a confusing and overwhelming process. Remember that God is in control. Hang in there!
LuckyOnce said...
That sounds really frustrating. I hope that you're able to get some more concrete answers to your questions!!
Mary said...
Wtf?! Drs are seriously annoying. I'm sorry you had to deal with that. Hopefully, you'll be pregnant and can be done with this guy.
just me, dawn said...
geez, nothing in life can be easy can it? Well, my fingers are crossed for the one (or two) follicles. and hoping that you don't need the IUI, but if you do....that it works the first time :)