Ok well.....I'm pregnant!! Not what I expected AT ALL but was having some weird cramps the past few days and decided to POAS this morning and got this!
Not the best picture but you get the point! I am only 13dpiui and have never tested positive sooner than 10 days late, so I'm looking at that like a good sign. I go tomorrow to get my first beta. I'll POAS again and hope that the line gets darker but will not allow myself to get obsessed. I am happy, scared, excited, cautious, petrified and optimistic!!! I'm every emotion there is! Today is exactly 6 months from the day I lost my last little one.
Hubby and I have decided we are not telling ANY family members until we are at least 12 weeks (if we make it that far). We wanted to wait until 14 but our 12 week mark lands on Christmas!! What better gift to give on the Lords birthday right?! The reason we have chosen to keep it a secret is because we really want to tell them when they can be excited for us. I know they will be happy but they will also be cautious (naturally) and we want that original excitement they had when we announced it the first time! We worry enough for the two of us, we don't need our family to worry too.
The only problem I see is keeping this from my mom and my little sister. My mom will be a bit easier as I don't see her too often (even though we talk on the phone at least once every day!). My sister on the other hand will be near impossible. She is my best friend and I would be lost without her. She lives about 2 hours away so one would think it would be easy to keep from her. One problem...her and hubby's birthday are 2 days apart (Nov 5 & 7) and we usually go out and drink it up in celebration! How am I gonna hide it from her if I can't drink??? Any advice is greatly appreciated. Oh and I can't be dd because she has us sleeping at a friends so we can take the train!!! Also, once she finds out I kept it from her I am gonna get in BIG trouble..lol. But hopefully it will be worth it!
We have decided to tell a few folks at our church (about 5) so we have some prayer warriors for our little one. Of course I know that I have all of you too!! Please pray that we can carry this baby to term and God blesses us with a healthy baby in the end. I am not nearly as bonkers as I thought I was going to be the next time we got a BFP, but I'm not sure if it is because it hasn't sunk in yet or my prayers for peace are being answered...perhaps both. All I know is that I love this little one already and that no matter what happens I always will. There is no way that I know of not to immediately become attached and I don't really think I want to. Regardless of what happens I know that one day I will get to be with this baby...be it on earth or in heaven. God's plan is the ultimate and although I may not always understand it I must trust that He has my best interest in mind.
Today I am pregnant and that makes me happy! God Bless!
8 comments:
cheryllookingforward said...
Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I understand not wanting to tell your parents. I had a hard time keeping quiet, and I told right after seeing a heartbeat!
I will be thinking of you and sending you prayers. Best of luck on your beta tomorrow.
Congratulations again!!!!
LuckyOnce said...
Congratulations!! I hope this is the one for you.
RachieD said...
How totally wonderful, am so pleased for you, congratulations. Keep hoping for the best, really hope this is the one you have been waiting for. Enjoy the moment, and the moments to come. xx
Laura said...
Congratulations! I'll be praying for you!
Kailyn's Mommy said...
Yayyyyy!!! So happy for you!! I told you it would happen for you soon. Can't wait to hear how your Beta is. Congrats!
Erica said...
So happy for you!!!!
Wendy said...
SOOOOOOOOOO happy for you Dawn!!! Will be sending prayers your way - can't wait to hear the beta!
Fumbling towards Motherhood said...
Woot Woot! That's AWSOME news Dawn! I am so happy for you! You've got a great attitude, and that's what counts. No matter what happens, you love this baby! Your Beta looks really good, that's a fantastic sign. Keep positive, you can do this! ((BIG HUG)). I look forward to hearing all about your journey. Thank you so much for sharing it with us. I pray this will be the one that sticks!